New to the Club

After almost 2 years of studying, listening & praying, I have finally come to know about the truth of living plural marriage. I never in a million years thought I would ever see myself participating on a polygamy forum, but here I sure am and glad to be here. I'm a convert to the church, went on a mission, married in the temple, etc. etc. & I am still active in the church. However I've come to learn that the gospel & the church are two separate things. I know that the gospel is true & always will be. The church is only where we go to learn about the gospel.

The most amazing thing that has recently happened though, is watching my wife gain a testimony of the true lost principles of the gospel, INCLUDING plural marriage. Craziness. That was one of the hardest things for her, but what's really cool is that she gained that testimony all on her own, without me pushing her. I was deathly afraid of telling her that I believed in it, and also that I believed the teachings of the scriptures and Joseph Smith above any other contradicting statements that are taught today. After she accidently prayed about it, she has had several dreams that have changed her heart, and I'm glad I can finally be open with her about everything I've learned.

Now that we've both accepted it, we are excited/nervous/terrified about what to do next. Excited about opening our hearts to another daughter of God to our family, nervous about how it will all work, and terrified about loosing most our friends, family & ultimately being cast out of the church. Not to mention this goes against everything we've ever been taught all our lives, but we can't deny it, and we don't dare.

But at least we aren't totally alone. I have a good friend who has been traveling the same road that I have, and we both came to the realization of it at about the same time. I also have a good friend here in Utah who just happens to be a polygamist, and has been a good influence on me and my wife.

So now we are approaching the next step, searching for a possible 2nd wife. We've been praying about it, but just not quite sure where to start looking. We don't have any desire to join up with another church at the moment, and it's not like I can go down to the nearest polygamy dance night or something and pick up a date, although I do live in Utah, so you never know... This sure is a leap for both of us, but we know it's right. The only thing we ask is that God confirms to us in an unmistakable way once we find someone, that it is the right person.

By the way I'm really putting myself out there by posting this, not knowing anyone on here, but I hope we'll make some good friends here who can help support us, especially when we're soon about to loose nearly everyone we love for accepting this holy principle. Your comments are much appreciated.