Your presence here makes it readily apparent, you have been infected with polyhopeful investigative curiosity.
I feel you really should be informed that this is not easily contracted, and the fact that you have it means you had an abnormal level of susceptibility.
There is little hope that the interest will fade, unless extreme measuresare taken, or horribly negative experiences happen to you very soon.
Once this curiosity develops roots, you will find it impossible to remove from your being.
This is just a friendly warning from someone who has had it for many years, been through a lot, and has found the hope just won't die!
I hope you either find the cure, or find people like you to share your life and malady with.
Welcome to the site!